“I could not move my leg! I could “feel” my leg attached to my body yet I could not move my leg. When I commanded my leg to move, by an exertion of will, there was a sympathetic twitch of nerves as if an electric current had shot through the tissue; a tightening, an expectation of movement; yet finally there was no movement. And I saw that I had been mistaken, that is my eyes had been mistaken seeing what they had been conditioned to see. The fact was, my leg was no longer attached to my body.

The horror of this realization filled me slowly…as a sponge slowly absorbs water by a curious action of its multiple cells. (Is the sponge a “single” organism? If “dismembered,” am I, or was I, a “single” organism?) My leg would not move. It would not move because it was no longer “my” leg. It was merely “the” leg. It was…”a” leg.”

Apocalypse: A Diptych by Joyce Carol Oates.

This describes painfully well what my phantom limb feels like.

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